Twenty-Seven - Sunday Routine

I think it is an official Sunday routine to hang out with Silver and Vinny. Haha. Yesterday was soooo much fun. Maybe not "fun" to other people, but it was the kind of fun that just warms my heart and makes me feel content with life. Just being around them is nice. It was friggin hot and that gave me a headache halfway through the day, but Silver gave me Excedrin, for tension headaches and that made it go away pretty fast. I was impressed! Normally I just use Excedrin Migraine, and that gets the job done, but not as fast as the other. Anyway, we played Apples to Apples. I love that game! I wanted to play like 45 games of it.

Yesterday while we were outside, Silver said something picking on Vinny (I forget exactly), but Vinny said, "Well Thane is my best friend and I love him" HAHAHA. It was SO adorable. When we came home I asked Thane if he remembered him saying that and Thane was like, "Yeah. That guy's awesome" They're hilarious.

I think Rowan is officially not afraid of Vinny anymore. Haha. When Thane and Vinny were playing a video game yesterday, Rowan hopped up on the couch behind them and put his arms around Vinny's shoulders/neck and was "hugging" him. Also, Rowan called him "Dad" HAHAHAHA. Thane was sitting right there and I was like, "Huh? Rowan! Vinny isn't your dad" (duh) and Vinny was like, "Yeah he called me that before too" So I think Rowan might think that any guy figure that doesn't have a name like "Grandpa" or "Uncle" or something has to be a dad? I mean, it kind of makes sense. The only other adult males he's around, frequently, are all family members with titles. So if he keeps it up we may have to tell him he can call him "Uncle Vinny" Ha.

I am so happy that Madalyn likes me so much. I can remember commenting on Silver's pictures of her, saying, "Ou! I want to squeeze her." or something lame like that. Haha. And now I can! She and Gracie are the cutest little girls ever. They're going to be ridiculously beautiful later on.

Mondays are always mellow days. :] So maybe that means I can hurry up and finish the book I've been working on so that I can start the book Silver let me borrow.

Twenty-Six - More Rain

It is raining again today. I hope that it is dry tomorrow because I think Thane and Vinny are going to set up our tent for a test run in preparation for next weekend! :] We are so stoked about camping. Although, I am a little nervous about being a tad bit moody. I hate dirt and bugs and stuff. Haha. I'm a big baby. But I do love campfires and the "no worry" feeling of being away from home for a couple of nights. It will be fun.

Rowan is napping and Thane is taking his Accounting weekly quiz. Like an hour ago I was practically begging Rowan to be ready for his nap because I wanted to take one so bad. Now I'm wide awake.

Tomorrow we're going to Silver and Vinny's. I think that was made obvious by my opening statement. Whatever. We're going to have belgian waffles. Yum. Silver is such a good cook. I know Thane is in love with the food she makes. He's always talking about it on the way home every week. Haha.

Riley has been accident free since the day before yesterday. Yay. I have no idea what came over her, maybe she got spooked by something we did and she was being really, really submissive for awhile? I don't know. I mean, we don't "yell" at her or discipline her or anything, so if we did do something, it wasn't anything intentional or something that we were aware of. It was probably Rowan. Hahaha. I'm just going to be like Gracie and blame stuff on everyone else. :p

I can't wait until we get another vehicle! It's driving me insane. I'd also like our refund check(s) to come in soon. I want to go shopping. Haha.

Twenty-Five - "The L Word"

I think I may need to go back and watch "The L Word" all over again. Hahaha. Silver has been watching it lately and it's been making me want to reconnect with some of the characters. And stare at Shane all day. Haha.

Twenty-Four - Orientation

My orientation went okay. It was mostly boring, but I did get my schedule, which was important. Now I can let the day care know what it is and finish enrolling Rowan to attend this fall.

I will be going to school Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays. My schedule is:

MWF:
9:10-10:05 Meteorology 101 in Park Hall
10:20-11:15 Practical English Grammar in the Campus Center
11:30-12:25 American Lit.: Beginning to the Civil War in the Campus Center (same room as my other CC class above)
12:25-1:50 Break
1:50-2:45 Shakespeare: An Introduction in Lanigan Hall

And then Monday & Wednesdays only:
3:00-4:20 Adolescent Psychology in Lanigan Hall

So not too bad for being one of the last groups of students to make their fall schedule. Since I'm technically a junior, next semester I should have no trouble getting classes that I want, when I want them. I am definitely going to try for Tuesdays and Thursdays next semester.

Rowan will be going to the day care program on Mondays and Wednesdays from 7:00am to 4:30pm. Thane doesn't work Fridays during the school year, so we only need two days of child care. Hopefully we can keep it that way until he needs to go more frequently because of preschool.

Student orientation leaders kept calling me "hun" and talking to me like I'm unexperienced in life or wouldn't understand things. Haha. I wanted to scream, "Leave me alone. I'm your elder!"

I only had one minor freak out during the whole thing. I had to eat lunch alone in the cafeteria. I was panicking. I didn't know what to get to eat and I couldn't see what everyone else was eating ahead of time because they were all seated in the cafeteria part and it's in another room than where you get your food. So I got a grilled ham and cheese sandwich, a salad, and pink lemonade. Turns out like every other (skinny) girl got fruit and salad. Sometimes I feel like people my size are supposed to be banned from eating in public. Since I can't even look people in the eye most of the time, I kept my head down and tried to see a spot where no one was out of the corner of my eye. I did and sat down before I realized it was in the back middle of the room, facing the entire room. That made me feel like everyone was looking at me and judging me. Then I was upset because I hadn't analyzed the entire area beforehand to see where I had to take my plate and tray when I was done. So I spent the entire time creating scenarios and plans for that while I ate. I was worried someone would sit near me and try and talk to me and then my poor communication/social skills would make me look like a rude bitch. Ha. Then I worried that if no one sat near me it just meant I was an even bigger loser than I thought. Whatever, I suck.

I can't even type a long entry because I have to get ready for my brother and sister-in-law to visit.

I hate how my anxiety makes me feel so drained. Like yesterday was a friggen marathon or something. Hi, it was just a normal day, calm down.

That's all for now, I suppose. I'll try and write more later today.

Twenty-Three - Earthquake

For future reference:

http://www.9wsyr.com/news/local/story/5-5-earthquake-reported-north-of-Ottawa-Canada/hjieiHHQUEC0Hc14sODVkQ.cspx

For present reference, just so everyone knows: natural disasters are one of my top fears. Like "I encounter this fear and I start acting silly" fears. Along with the dark, bugs, water, and anything bad happening to Rowan. My top 5. I want to vomit. Granted it wasn't even a big deal here... I still felt it. Thane didn't believe me. At first I thought it was Riley lying on the floor, touching the couch, and itching herself with her leg/foot. Then it got a little intense and I realized the whole house was moving and my computer screen was shaking. Thane and I were in the same room and he didn't feel it. Ha. The one thing I love about New York is that it is usually natural disaster, of any sort, free. I like that. I can't even handle thunderstorms.

Yuck. Call me a baby. Or say I'm overdramatic. I don't care. Just as long as it doesn't happen again.

Twenty-Two - Walmart Sucks

So we didn't get to get our camping stuff and our groceries. But at least we got our camping stuff! Haha. The reason why we didn't get to get groceries is because Walmart sucks and they put us through hell and gave me a panic attack, which then turned into a migraine quickly, so we had to go home. We bought $309.36 worth of camping stuff (some stuff is for our trip 4th of July weekend with Silver and Vinny and the rest is for when we go camping on our own.) so we're just about all set. When we were cashing out I told the lady I wanted to pay $9.36 with our debit and then put $300 on our Walmart credit card. She told me I had to do the debit first and told me to swipe my card. Then she tells me to hit "okay" on the screen and I was like, "This is just for the $9.36, right?" and she tells me yes. Ten seconds later she says, "Oh, it looks like it took it all off the debit. Is that okay?" NO, IT'S NOT OKAY, MORON. Instead, because I haven't lost my cool yet, I say, "Um, no, that's not okay. I have to put $300 on our credit card for a reason" so then she says she has to call someone over to help her. Another girl comes over and says she'll just void the order real quick, but that they'll have to re-ring the entire order. I tell her if that's the only option, fine, but that there's still a problem, we didn't have $309.36 in our bank account (we only had like $279 or something like that until Thane got paid today. Our bank is dumb and doesn't deny a debit transaction if there's insufficient funds. They just put you in the negative and then you owe that PLUS a $30 fee)! So I tell them that I need to speak to the manager because we are NOT going to eat that fee for Walmart's mistake. She tells me she'll go and speak with him after she voids the transaction and while we're ringing up the order again. THEN she can't void the order. She calls the manager on her walkie thing and he tells her it's because the order is too expensive and it can't be voided, but that it can be RETURNED. Then she tells me we'll have to take our two carts full and go to customer service where they have to scan everything to do a refund and then scan everything another time to ring it all back in. She says the money will go back on the card and we can repurchase everything. This is when I speak up, yet again (and Im getting quite angry by this point and can't even control my shaking because I'm a stable panicker) and say, "Excuse me, but when something is refunded to someone's card, even if it was a debit purchase, doesn't it take 3 business days to clear and be put back into a person's account?!" to which she tells me I am correct. UM HELLO. So I say, "I'm sorry, but I'm a little fucking lost as to what the fuck you expect us to do for three days without ANY money now, at all" So she calls her manager again. He says he will write up a report and allow us to get the money returned to us in cash, even though a transaction that high isn't normally refunded as cash, even when paid with a debit. I'm really just fed up at this point, so of course I'm just being a smart ass bitch and I say something like, "I don't know why you're lecturing me as if I'm LUCKY you're giving us this option. For you, there is no other option. You can't take someone's money unwillingly and then even THINK that you can keep it and put them out for three days because it's a policy, so just get it done please, we've wasted enough time already" So we had to go through and refund everything and were given $309.36 in cash. Then we paid $9.36 in cash, put $300 on the credit card and they took down my name and number so that if the bank does charge us a fee (which I'm 99% sure they will), they are going to pay the fee to the bank for us. They also gave us a $20 Walmart gift card. But that was totally not worth the 45 minutes we spent going through all this! By the time we were done Rowan was screaming and whining (he was bored and tired at this point) and I was just so fucking stressed that I started getting a migraine that got so bad by the time we got home that I had to go straight to bed and had dry heaves until I passed out. UGH UGH UGH. So now we have to go get groceries tonight after my orientation. So annoyed.

In other news, Thane's paycheck was still $45 less than it should be. Something is not right. The insurance is fucking everything up and we're just losing a shit ton of money. Every time he asks about it he gets an altered explanation. I just yelled at him and told him enough is enough. He has to put his foot down and demand a full explanation that makes SENSE. Man, I like caps lock today, huh?

Last night was Rowan's last t-ball game. He finally hit the ball! Willingly. Haha. But he refused to run the bases. Instead he ran after his ball. When the kids from the other team all ran after his ball too, he screamed/screeched so loud the kids all froze, so he ran and grabbed it. Then he ran to the back of the gym (they played indoors because of the rain) and played by himself with it. Haha. After t-ball we went to Ponderosa. That's where Rowan wanted to go, and since it was his last game we said why not. He loves that place. Haha. Like 10 minutes after getting there a little boy in the booth right next to us started screaming and crying. Rowan watched for a split second and then all of a sudden stood up in his seat and started yelling at the top of his lungs, "OH NO! DADDY DOOOO SOMETHING!!!!" and he kept screaming this over and over and over again, while POINTING at this other family. Thane was trying to explain to him that the little boy was misbehaving and it was okay, to pay attention to his own food. I could do nothing except put my napkin over my face because I was laughing so hysterically. I laughed so hard I cried up a storm and then for the rest of the time the other family was there the father glared at me. Hahaha.

I slept awful last night. I was awake from about 2am until 415ish. I think I was subconsciously having anxiety issues over my orientation that's later today. I suck.

Twenty-One - Somewhat Eventful Day

The second half of today is going to be busy. Rowan's last day of t-ball is today. It's the "world series" Haha. We have to bring a snack for everyone. Kids like Chex mix, right? After his game we're taking Rowan out for some pizza at Enzo's. We haven't had a pizza from there in forever. It used to be our favorite when we lived in Oswego. We decided that after the game and pizza we're going to make a late night of it and go grocery shopping AND camping shopping. I hope we have enough room in the car for all of it. Ha. We'll probably get home around 10:00 I imagine. But that means we don't have to do it tomorrow after I get back from my first day of orientation, and Thane can get a lot of school work done. I only have orientation from oneish tomorrow until... I don't know when actually. Thursday I have to be there at 7:30am and I will be finished at 4. My mom is going to take Thursday off to watch Rowan and I'll have to ride into work with Thane.

Riley peed on the carpet today. I do not get her. She has been potty trained, indoor and outdoor for a long, long time. I can understand one accident. But in the past two weeks I'd say she's done it 8 times! She's like afraid to go on her pads and afraid to tell me she wants to go out. If I take her out, she'll hold it and trick me into thinking she's fine, doesn't have to go. Then we'll come in and she'll either piss right on the carpet while I'm in the kitchen getting Rowan food or doing something with him where I'm not in the living room or she'll even do it right in front of me! She'll squat, stare right at me, and pee! I don't even know what to do to stop this, or why it began. We're definitely going to have to get a new rug now. We were planning on it anyway, but it just sucks that she's ruining this one.

Blah.